I met Jane at my mother’s church one Sunday morning. By looking at her you could tell that life was hard. Her hair was short and grey. By looking at her clothes you could tell that she didn’t get them at the most expensive or hip stores. You could see the wrinkles on her face where age was starting to touch her. Yet looking in her eyes you could see joy and looking at her mouth you could see a big smile. Jane had been set free and the love of Jesus was overwhelming to her.
Jane was not you average Christian. When I remember her I think about how she acted like the woman with her mite… giving it away when it was all she had. Jane, after praying and believing with all her heart that God wanted her to, gave me $20 because I would need it to buy books while I was in college. She could have used that $20 to buy food for herself that week or pay rent or whatever else she could have needed, but she wanted to give it to me.
Jane was also not your average Christian because she was a lesbian that came to church.
Now before you go on judging her or my mother’s pastor and church, let me ask you, “how hard is it to go to the Doctor when most of the nurses are turning you away?”
The Bible says in James 2.10 “For whosoever shall keep the whole law, and yet offend in one point, he is guilty of all.”?
Have you lied? You are guilty of all. Have you put someone or thing in the place of God? You are guilty of all. Have you stolen something that didn’t belong to you? You are guilty of all.
Jane knew that she was a sinner, just like you and me. And that I know of she tried to turn her life around. Did she still struggle with it? Probably.
Do young men struggle with porn? Yes, they do.Do we, like Paul said, do things that we would not want to do and the things that we want to do, do not do?YES! Does that make us any less a child of God? NO!
I learned from Jane that you can’t judge a book by its cover. I learned that love is sacrificing, even when you are in a time of need. I learned that even people who have been hurt by the church’s actions still want to see Christ and know Him. I learned that a church can take in someone who is not “clean” to begin with and Christ can make them white as snow. I learned that you can only love your Savior as much as He has saved you. I learned from the look in her eyes that He had.
Jane, I love you. I miss you so much. But I KNOW that I will see you when I make it to heaven. Your struggles are over, my friend, and I will never forget you.
Megan A.K.A. “Mom”